Ashamed to Love a Loser

I don't want to love him

I can't love him

But I do

I know he's not my type

My friends think he's ugly

But I love him

And I hate that I do

He is totally different from me

I dont want to love a loser

Im not a bad person, really

I just can't ever be seen with him

I can't ever hug him

I can't ever kiss him

But in my heart I really want to

I wish he wasn't a loser

I wish he wasn't ugly

Then I could love him without hiding it

I could express all of my feelings towards him

I wouldn't have to be ashamed of him

Ashamed of all the love that I have for him

Ashamed of myself for judging him like this

Like he is a piece of meat

Maybe one day I will just say what ever and be with him

One day I'll find the courage to do it

Be proud that I love a loser

Not care what anybody else thinks

But for now I'm just a coward

Hiding my love for a loser