I thought of you

      I thought of you as I came to an end. Your twisted words that tried to mend, but I saw through you and to the otherside. I saw your soul and the darkness you tried to hide. I was nothing to you. Am nothing.  Still nothing. But thats okay I never needed you anyways! Even if I'm broken into pieces and I fumble to pick them up. I won't ask for you to help me or to pick me up. Don't listen to me I'm insane and confused. I still love you! Please take my heart and break it if you want! I don't care as long as you still love me too! Even though you broke me and I sit in a dark room with a short piece of rope I still love you. Even if it hurts me. I will love you. But I guess that was my fatal mistake. I loved you and you saw past me with hollow eyes.Even your smiles had no meaning. Nothing real.

I thought of you as I walked up the steps. I thought of you as I tied the knots. I thought of you as I jumped off the stairs. and I still think of you even as I hang.