Colors of anger

The colors of anger,

Are painted on my wall,

Carved into my wrists,

letting me fall.

I've failed once,

I've failed twice,

The colors betray me,

When I roll the dice.

Paint me black,

Paint me yellow,

Paint me red,

Call me shallow.

Yell at me,

Scream at me,

The colors are alive,

They can see.

The colors of anger,

Live inside of me,

They eat me from the inside out,

They tell me I'm ugly.

I here them whisper,

Bad things in my ear,

When I cry out to them,

They cheer.

There happy when I'm sad,

Mad when I'm not,

What do I do,

I have a thought.

I'll kill myself once,

I'll kill myself twice,

Like my mistakes,

I'll roll the dice.

Lying on the floor,

Dead hard and cold,

They left me alone,

No one told.