illusions

Finding it hard to breath,
Air is closing in on me.

Tears streaking down,
Not just tears of water.

Waiting for you to speak,
Yet you stay silently still.

I wonder if you're waiting for me to reply,
Of course you know inside I won't.

40 minutes of waiting now,
40 minutes to see who will speak.

And just like that you're gone,
Tired of this no speak game.

I'm alone now,
I know it's true.

Maybe I always was,
I just pretended to have you.

I wonder what's going on in your thoughts,
For I know what's going on in mine.

Dreams of death and suicide,
Oh how pleasantly fine.