Letting It All Go

You used to tell me you loved me.

That you didn't know what you would do

if you didn't have me.

you lied.

Three & a half years ago you left me.

You just left me.

No phone call to tell me why

or even to tell me bye.

It hurt. I cried.

I still cry.

How could you?

Trick me into loving you,

into thinking you would always be there.

I don't understand it.

But that's okay.

Because even though now,

I have trouble trusting people.

I have trouble letting people into my life.

I don't want to get close to anyone.

I'm letting it all go.

EVERYTHING

All the memories of us.

All the things we used to do together.

All the pain I've been through.

Because now,

now you have her.

or three and a half years now you have had her.

You see her every day.

I just wish I could too.

Be loved the way she is loved.

See you and her together.

My father and my sister.

It hurts

But that's okay.

Because I am letting it all go.