My Testimony

rememberin them days when i was all alone
i had no one to run to no one to hold
i was desperate for love but in all the wrong places
i was full of hate within always with smiley faces
always poppin pills to ease the pain
chuggin down sum liqour to feel okay
the days passed by n i was draggin
i knew inside there was suttin lackin
i didnt want to accept the truth
but i had no one else, i had to run to u
i tried church a couple of times
but the people was fake, too many lies
condemin me without knowin me
fillin me with hate without showin me
there was an answer to my cries
there was a Saviour up in the skies
so once again i was in too deep
wantin to die, to never wake from my sleep
i was waitin for death, actually seekin it
tryin to kill myself but unable to go through with it
there was somethin holdin me back
a little voice tellin me to come back
there is hope in your future give it time
God knew in time that this victory'd be mine
so by and by i was fallin by the minute
not knowin how much longer i could withstand it
till one day i entered the house of God
greeted without judgement and so much love
felt the fire of God within my heart
I knew this is what i had been seekin out
since the day I accepted Christ i aint the same
He been cleanin me out takin my pain
God saw past my imperfections and my ability
to use words to hurt people with such sincerity
Now He uses my words to encourage and love
To show people He exists, He waits for them open arms
I no longer seek death as an escape to my pain
I seek God and His peace that no drug or liquor could replace