Spin

I feel you now
Aren't you tired of being around?
Swinging me left and right
Bringing me up and down
You have me spinning in circles
So now I can't decide
Whether to show a smile
Or sink into a frown

You've got me spinning in circles
I don't even know what to think
Can't I live without your pits of despair?
Can't I live with just this smile showing?
I want to be happy, but you pull me in
You pull my insides out
String my guts like a noose
And hang me high and proud

I don't want to feel you inside
I don't want to be struggling to find harmony
It's a balancing act in my heart right now
Does it show?
Does it show?
How would you know?
I hate feeling you writhing inside
I hate knowing you're in control
It's my mind
I've got my will
So leave me alone

I hate feeling you inside me
Banging and bashing like a madman in my head
You've got me under each of your commands
I've got my head shaking in my weakening hands
I'm tired of knowing that as long as you're around
I'll never find peace
I'll wind up in pieces
Before you're through
You've got me swinging left and right
You bring me up and down
So that I can never decide
Whether to widen my smile
Or sink deeper into my frown

I keep spinning in circles
Not knowing what to think
Can my joy make me any lighter?
How much lower could I sink?
You've got me spinning in circles
You throw me around
Don't you care how I feel?
Well, that's your whole point of existence