What Do you See in Me?

When I look in the mirror

I start to tear

My friend said she purges after every meal

She said how it made her feel

It makes her feel in control

Even though it’s breaking her soul

I thought I had control

I feel like I should kill my soul

I tried to commit suicide

I felt a tear

I went to the doctor

They said I had heart failure

I tried to get therapy

But as I could see

It didn’t help me

My mom and dad fought about my problems

They just couldn’t solve them

They got a divorce

I was only catorce

I wanted everything to end

And everything to mend

I got a rope in the cellar

I tied to the pillar

I took the loop over my neck

It tightened with a threat

‘You don’t have to worry anymore

Your heart will no loner be tore’

I had sealed my death

With just one step