Heart Burts into Fire

She was the glowing light in my darkness, illuminating her golden hair.
Even though i was hundreds of feet away, i could instantly tell it was her.
Shocked cold, clouded with painful thoughts, i just stood there
I could have fled, but staying there , isolated, is what i prefered

My  confused mind wanted me to go and say hi,
but my heart, scared,  froze me inplace, it's for the best
i forgot the one devastating fact, that i'm no longer her guy.
i let her go, and yet again, i'm left here, depressed

I know now about what i regret the most that will haunt me everday.
Hurting her, i was a careless young teenager, flirting away
How sorry i am, is undescribable, I would do anything for her.
Even if it means for me to stay away from her, forever.

In silent corners, i hide my tears, not revealing my weakness.
"why was i so stupid" i ask myself, day after day
my actions, i didn't mean to cause this bleakness
Ever since then, my world turned sour and gray

What  if i didn't commit my lifesentenced crime
What if i fixed your shattered heart
If only, i could actually travel back in time
to go back, all the way back where we start

We would be happy, cuddling, watching movies of some kind
embracing by the fireplace durring the blistering winter storm,
perhaps, our fingers laced, and intertwined
comforting each other, hearts glowing warm
  
So now what, my tormenting reality is actually "hell".
Her nukes of dissapointment and hatred, polute my mind.
I question blindly to her, "Is this our farewell?"
I don't want my feelings for her be declinded

Over the long years, my heart, has sparked in pain.
That one time i saw her glare at me, my heart  burst, and fire rained.
So day after day, i live with this sickness, swallowing me whole.
My heart bursts into fire, my life, that's how it rolls.