My Climax Awaits Me

Have many things I’ve been holding back,
for months aproaching on years.
It is my courage that I unbearingly lack,
to explain why I have these tears.

One ignores me, whats her reason?
Our friendship disolved, tears awoken,
yet I have her number, i’ve waited a season
but scared I am, to be heart broken.

Every time i hear a laugh,
everytime i see beautiful eyes
I think of her, and her unspoken wrath.
My heart, it slowly cries

My other, is polite with all her smiles.
My friends say she doesn’t want to see me.
Instant reminders of her, stack for miles,
now do i call her, or leave her be?

Every time i look to the stars.
Every time i feel thundering rain,
I think of her, i’m encaged in bars,
by her avoidance, that causes my pain

So day upon day, I think of calling,
but my courage, pauses reluctantly.
In my mind, its like i’m falling.
My climax awaits me