Death of Valentines Day

This poem was made last year for an English assignment hense why its so cheesy and is actually rhyming[it HAD to rhyme] . This is to a close friend who passed away on Valentines Day in 2007, the worst Valentines Day for me and one I will never forget. Shes the reason I got into my now favorite class; Creative writing. ANDDD you probably all know her xashleyrosex with her touching letter reminded me of this poem so thanks ashley!

Dedicated to: Special babygirl up above; Kristina Akana<3
Rest. In . Paradise

As our daily routines continued everyday
I always wondered why you couldn't stay
Time and Time again, I just lost another friend
As I watched the plants outside whither and die
I can't help but ask why?
Why did you disappear?
Leaving us all here?
Left to think of the laughs, smiles and days we spent together.

Feelings you get on Valentines Day
Day of love, hopes and friendships.
Are gone, forever gone instead its the day of depression.
Wishing and hoping it was not true
that it was the death of you.
Looking back on all the days wasted! Don't you just hate it?
Not knowing how much time left but only knowing you will die someday...

I promised I would not cry and sob
Seeing your surrounded coffin and huge mobs
Every step I took
I reminded myself to look
Since it would be
the last time for me
The minute I was at the side of your coffin
I had to stay strong, remembering my promise I made.
But the emotions gave way!
Slowly and slowly
the tears dropped
would they ever stop?

Briefly looking away, I looked at our friends who had came.
Harder and harder
We weeped, holding each other, comforting each other.
It hurt so much...so much that we had to leave into another room.
For one moment...
It was all silent, both tears and mouths, but our eyes were screaming!
Screaming of mournful dread, expressing what could not be said.

Sooner and sooner
People began to leave, saying their last good-byes to you.
But us, we remained, sitting silent and sustained..too shocked to move.
After a while we all decided to just have our last look before we finally left.
We got up at the same time and approached you.
I gazed down at you once again...tears filling my eyes.
Over and over again I screamed in my head why!?
Knowing you had so much time left.
Hurting and hurting so
Wishing so, so hard that you really didn't go.
I had to face reality, but I was too scared to face the fact that...you were gone.
The fact that I was too late to do anything, anything to help.
Hurt the most...

Calmly and slowly
Our tears died down.
Looking at all the notes, pictures, candy, toys and comments passed around.
Starting to laugh at what we saw.
Knowing most the stuff that was there was stuff only you of all people would have.
As we laughed harder and tears were completely gone we kept gazing at you.
And to be completely true...
no one ever took their eyes off you.

Remembering all the memories
The girl who was not afraid of anything.
You never cared of what people thought of you.
Always free and careless as ever.
You gave light and hope to those around you.

Though we did not want you to go.
I know I would never really let go.
But I might as well let you know...

I'll never forget the girl with the warm hugs.
The smile that could brighten a thousand cities.
Laughter that could be heard planets away.
The amazing girl that everyone will never forget,
but hopefully you could hear me say...

I love you Kristina Marie Akana
Never forget it!

Kristina, 

I miss you more then you'll ever know. All I feel now is regret and guilt that I couldn't be there for you but you were there for me. I'm sorry I let you down, all I think about now and then is the "what ifs". Please be happy for all of us down here, especially your family. I know they miss you most. I love you babygirlll! My lil pinay! BE HAPPY!

So much love from all your friend's hearts COMBINED,

Frizella