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Created on 3-1-08
As I lay in despair & pain
I feel the shadow of the day reel in
I'm confused at what I did
I'm confused at what you did
Either way you put it, I'm pissed
You're now nothing but a ghost in mind
Screaming at me
Throwing orders at me
Controlling me
As I sit on my bed
I look out at the rain
Tap-tap-tapping on the glass
Maybe tomorrow will be better
Maybe not
Maybe tommorow will hold more drama & angst
Maybe tommorow someone might get shot
Either way, if someone does
I'll be in a corner
Smirking for all I got
I don't know many things
But among those things
Is the reason why you got so jealous
I'm confused as hell
Please, won't you tell?
I suppose not
After all, you ran when someone fought
You switched sides in a blink
Then you reply
"I didn't, you did"
But if that was the truth
I wouldn't be sitting on my bed
Wishing somehow you were dead
As I wish among these things
I can't help but wonder...
What if you hadn't got so jealous?
What if you hadn't switched sides in the blink of an eye?
What if you hadn't stabbed me in the back
With daggers in your eyes?
What if you weren't the way you are?
What if somehow you were shot?
Save the first 5
I'd be laughing
In my corner
With a gun
And a silver bullet
But since I'm not a murderer
I think I'll stick with this
But I hope you know
That I'm seriously pissed
I hope you fall into a pit
With snakes,
A blazing inferno,
Many pointy spikes,
And of course
Must've forget the wolves
They will tear you apart with the least regret
As I watch in entertainment
Either way
I won't feel any regret, remorse, or guilt
In any way, shape, or form
I shall watch intently at your shrieking form
Maybe I'll be struck by the hand of humanity
I don't care
But, I'm sure you wouldn't either
As you burn in Hell
I feel the shadow of the day reel in
I'm confused at what I did
I'm confused at what you did
Either way you put it, I'm pissed
You're now nothing but a ghost in mind
Screaming at me
Throwing orders at me
Controlling me
As I sit on my bed
I look out at the rain
Tap-tap-tapping on the glass
Maybe tomorrow will be better
Maybe not
Maybe tommorow will hold more drama & angst
Maybe tommorow someone might get shot
Either way, if someone does
I'll be in a corner
Smirking for all I got
I don't know many things
But among those things
Is the reason why you got so jealous
I'm confused as hell
Please, won't you tell?
I suppose not
After all, you ran when someone fought
You switched sides in a blink
Then you reply
"I didn't, you did"
But if that was the truth
I wouldn't be sitting on my bed
Wishing somehow you were dead
As I wish among these things
I can't help but wonder...
What if you hadn't got so jealous?
What if you hadn't switched sides in the blink of an eye?
What if you hadn't stabbed me in the back
With daggers in your eyes?
What if you weren't the way you are?
What if somehow you were shot?
Save the first 5
I'd be laughing
In my corner
With a gun
And a silver bullet
But since I'm not a murderer
I think I'll stick with this
But I hope you know
That I'm seriously pissed
I hope you fall into a pit
With snakes,
A blazing inferno,
Many pointy spikes,
And of course
Must've forget the wolves
They will tear you apart with the least regret
As I watch in entertainment
Either way
I won't feel any regret, remorse, or guilt
In any way, shape, or form
I shall watch intently at your shrieking form
Maybe I'll be struck by the hand of humanity
I don't care
But, I'm sure you wouldn't either
As you burn in Hell
Others will watch
I'm very certain
But I know that they'll all ask the same thing
"Why'd you do that?"
And I'll answer...
"Because she lied to me
Because she made fun of me
Because a friend of mine joined her
Because she's a bitch
Because she's so fake
Because others can't see through her trick"
You know
I think I would've cried right then and there
If I hadn't known that my best friend was sitting next to me
I have to keep strong
I have to let people know
That I aint the girl they met on the first day of school
That I shot my image long ago
And that I aint gonna forgive as easily
But you know what else?
As soon as I got home
I punched the wall
I kicked my backpack
I yelled at the TV
And then I sat down
In front of my PC
Only to be attacked by tears
That hadn't come freely
Since the day I moved
It felt good
But I was so hurt that I didn't care
I tried to shake it off and make myself realize
That I didn't need her
But then I realized that she has my memories
She has my secrets
She has my enemies
I couldn't just forget
For she was sure to bring up
One of the things that I told her not to
Long ago when we were friends
My enemies would find out
And never let me out
That's when I checked my mail
New messages are supposed to bring joy
Excitement, possibly
But no...
It brought me misery
And pain
And horibble memories of the day
But I opened it anyway
And now I'm glad I did
That friend who sided with her
Said sorry
We forgot
I forgave
She sympathized
And yet
I was still angry with the bitch
Perhaps things like that never disappear
Perhaps they just linger around
Until you go insane
I wouldn't know
It was only the second time it happened
That week
I was still shocked
I went numb
I wish I really was one
Who just sent hate mail by will
But I'm not
I'm one who replies
With comebacks
Not by will
By instinct
Now I know
I still don't need her
Even if I said I forgave her
After she said sorry
But yet again
I saw through her lie
I knew she was fibbing
I knew she didn't mean it
I knew she was still jealous
I knew I still hated her
For everything she did
Maybe someday I'll get her back
Maybe someday I'll get rid of this hate
When that 'someday' comes...
I aint accepting it
And instead I'll relive this day
In hopes to rekindle my hate
Maybe when that happens
I'll have the guts to stand up for myself
Please Login to post comments| On June 4th 2008 williamscott7 Said : | |
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Amazing... I hope you can get over what this person did to you. Excellently written. |
| On March 1st 2008 FirePrncsssKai Said : | |
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all the spaces between the stnazas were deleted, so DONT GIVE BAD COMMENTS JUST BECAUSE THE LINES ARE CLUMPED TOGETHER!!!! have a nice day ^^ |
