Just A Friend

This is a lie.
Every touch, just a touch
Each thought, sad for me
Living each moment as it comes
Unyearning for closeliness
Is this how I'm supposed to act?

Unafraid of what you may think
Unafraid of how  you see me
I'm such an ugly person for doing this

When we depart, I don't feel sad
Nor do I feel happy
I'll just live this way for awhile
See how my feelings progress
If nothing happens, if I remain numb
In this deadzone I must stay

Leave me and find another!
Leave me and go in peace!

I'm so sorry I couldn't feel it..
I'm so sorry I wasn't good enough for you..
You deserve so much more.
Hopefully, you won't be hurt and
Hopefully, I won't either.

By: JNE