Post Summer

I write to relieve my blockage of emotions
Unconciously hidden away inside, somewhere
I know I should be feeling hurt, upset, sad
If only, if only I could feel again..
I write to observe reactions, your reactions
As I lay in my sister's bed typing these words
I want to know your reaction to this
If I said I was hurting
I want to know your reaction to this
If I said I was hurting bad
I want you to hear these words echoing in your thoughts:
I'm hurting bad inside.
I want you guys to know that I only drowned out the noise
So your could tell her later that I didn't know
Now, my clot is unblocking..slowly:

I want to feel what these neglectful months have caused
I want to feel that the summer memories, the summer closeliness..was real
I want to remember..please remember me, my friend
Remember who I am
Remember what was
Remember this shoulder
Remember our time together
Remember me, my friend

I close my eyes now
I don't want to look at these words
My eyes are irritated by the salty tears
I love you so much my friend
I can hardly grasp the summer air
Was it real, was it real, do you still feel the air?

I wish you could read this now..
I wish you could read this now..
I wish you could read this now..
that I still I care about who you are
that I still love you, my friend
that I miss you so terribly

By: JNE