Left Out

The pain is killing me worse than before

My black tears are turning into the river

The river flows so fast

Do you see a single tear?

They roll down my cheeks so many times

Feeling the pain

Feeling the fire

Feeling the ice

I'm so sick of being on the fire and ice

I'm left alone

Everyone is smiling and laughing around me

Everyone is talking expect me

My eyes are as ice as stone

My voice is silence

My ears are nothing to listen

My nose is smelling the fear

My heart beats so slowly

Everyone in my house is talking expect me

Do you realize how I feel?

I'm tired being deaf

I'm tired being silence

I'm tired being a quiet girl

I'm tired of tying my hands a rope

I realize what a deaf culture is about

I don't really want the river to flow so fast

I just want the sun to get the river dry

I wish someone can break me free

I wish someone can give me a wings

I wish someone can make me fly

I'm tired of drowning in the ocean

I'm tired of the black clouds above me

Make the black clouds ran away

I just don't really want to be a quiet girl anymore

I just don't really want my ears to be silence

I'm so sick of it

My lips are hardly smiling

My eyes are hardly shinning

My ears are hardly listening

My voice is hardly speaking

I am tired of myself

The pain is killing me to death

I just don't wanna be around my family who can hear and speak

I just don't speak all the times

I just want my hands to sign freely

I realize how they feel about sign language

I understand it is hard for them

They don't open their eyes

They don't understand how I feel

I just hate being left out

I wish I am normal just like other normal teenagers

Even through I found my best friends who can understand me well

They let their hands to sign freely

Watching their hands just like a hawk

They smile all the times

I'm the luckiest girl of their worlds

Don't cry me a river

I am just trying to be a normal girl

5/28/07