Tired Of Myself

I finally realize why I was feeling the blues

Look at my eyes

They are finally letting the tears to come out of the eyes

Dropping down the floor

Splashing the floor

I'm tired of holding my past

Everything is a horrible thing in my past

I'm finally sorry for myself

I only want to stop myself from the stupid bad thing

I just don't want to feel the knife in my throat

Suffering to the death

I'm not me

This is not who I am

I'm turning into a monster.

Becoming an enemy to myself

Hating myself

Walked down to the street in the dark black night

Tripped over a small rock

Tried to run away from something

Continued to scream out

Screamed to feel the pain inside me

Guess what?

I'm deciding to not run away anymore

Stopping to scream

Turning back to up the street

Walking up and feeling the butterflies in my stomach

Even through I gotta face the fears

I don't need to be a hero

However I need to save myself from the pain again

I'm tired of holding my past

I only want to continue my journey

I don't want to start my life over and over again

I'm sick and tired of starting over again

I'm sorry, but I need to save myself from hurting myself in a pain

Walking and getting closer to ya

Speaking in a calm voice

Explaining to ya how much I feel the pain

Telling you how many times I screamed out

I'm trying to go back to be myself, again

I'm trying to be me again

Even through I'm stronger than before

Don't your eyes see?

I'm stronger than we think

Every day, I gain my muscles

You don't know me well

I made so many mistakes

I always wish I can make the right thing to do from making a mistake in the timeline

I always want the bright day

Dreaming of being in the sunshine