My happiness

I can feel death's cold grasp,

my last words come out in a slow painful rasp.

I tried so hard I really did want to stay,

but my happiness has gone away.

I'm not faking these feelings or that I want to die,

its the truth I tell not a lie.

I didin't want to hurt you,

but in the end I've still hurt you.

I'm sorry for this pain,

for it I take the blame,

but I can't live like this.

With nothing but one wish.

The wish to fly away,

and leave to some rainy day.

I never meant to hurt you or make you cry,

I only wanted you to see I do not lie,

when I say I want to die.

its the truth not a lie.

I know you don't like what I say,

and with your tears I guess I'll have to pay,

but I want you to see,

who I truly am, me.

I can't help but think of how life would be,

without me.

I want you to listen to my voice,

now its your choice,

you decide if I'm lieing or not.

You decide if this is truly what I feel.

Help me,

make me see.

Don't waste your time,

happiness will never be mine.