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I'd like to tell you before you read this poem not to hate. You don't know her so don't try and tell me anything bad. 

I'm in the bathroom and I look at myself,

is this the life that I've been dealt?

My sister died when I was ten,

my mother went crazy right about then.

Such a young age at only sixteen,

exactly what did her life mean?

Was there a reason, can I ask why?

Whatever it is I know she will fly;

Fly with the angels soaring above,

and sending down her undying love.

Now I'm fourteen and I think I've met,

the greatest guy as of yet!

Words cannot describe how I feel

I just know for me... it's real.

Couldn't help it, got caught in the mix

until December 8th 1996.

There was a knock on my door it was my dad,

the look on his face I knew he was sad.

A young man only nineteen,

His was a death no one foreseen.

Not to mention his unborn baby,

Was there a reason? I think, maybe.

Now I'm alone dealing with loss,

my life is turned to sudden chaos.

Fast forward a bit about a year,

I meet someone else, my heart is unclear.

No time to decide, again I'm expecting.

I leave him, just a mother protecting

the health and safety of her unborn child.

His other girl was just too damn wild.

Trenton came three months early,

"He won't live," the doc said surely.

But he did and again it was me,

all alone with nobody.

His dad took a hike right after birth,

but that's alright I know his worth.

Fast forward again, this time half a year.

Another guy... but no Shakespeare.

I take a test and it's quite clear,

another baby in less than a year!

I'm seventeen and really distraught,

this is not what my parents had taught.

I can't help but think I'm a mess,

what happened next... take a guess.

Dad number two no better than the first,

he left before I even gave birth.

"Fuck him," was all I could think of to say.

Hey, it wasn't my fault he didn't stay.

So now I'm alone, it's almost a trend.

Maybe this time I'll try a girlfriend.

The usual stuff, same exact drama.

Not to mention her other hot mama!

Don't get me started on that crazy bitch,

to tell that story I'll need a sandwich!

Moving along maybe a year,

I meet a man who I love dear.

I love this guy like never before,

three years later I walk out the door.

Was it a mistake? I'll never know.

At that time my heart said "GO!"

Of all the pain he hurt me worst,

more than the second and the first.

Three months after we split up,

he got married ain't that fucked up!

It didn't work, what a surprise.

He later told me he was unwise.

He said he loved me and needed revenge,

it was his heart that felt the avenge.

I love him dearly and he's still my friend,

he always will be even after the end.

Two years later someone else comes along.

Fourth times a charm... boy was I wrong!

Two weeks dating and I'm pregnant again,

His tale is tall, especially when....

His ex girlfriend hears the news

there's so many stories, which one will she choose?

So many choices of what to believe,

a tangled web is what they weaved.

A web of lies for him and her alike

I think it fucked with both their psych.

Another child, again on my own.

Did it before I won't bitch and moan.

Because I don't need losers like them,

to leave your child you surely condemn

your own self to eternal guilt.

Just don't cry over milk spilt.

So when I talk shit and tell you fuck you,

I'll tell you exactly what you should do.

You should leave me alone instead of respond,

there's more to me, it goes way beyond

anything you think you might know.

Don't put up a front, for your friends a show.

I forgive the hatin ass bitches who judge,

you don't know me so there is no grudge.

Just make sure you know when you part your lips,

the person you speak about has hardships

and sometimes don't think before they act.

You do it too.... that's almost fact.

So this is me and the life I live,

a single mom, beautiful and Native.

No doubt in my mind I can do it alone,

so far, so good all on my own.

So now you know all I've been through,

Think to yourself... can you do what I do?