Life

Is it sad that I miss you?
Did I ever really have you?
How is it that I have dreams of kissing you?
Pushing you away was so easy
Now keeping my heart at bay is anything but
Is it too late to be with you?
I already know the answer to that, but it would still hurt so much if I tried anyways?
Would you push me away as I did to you always?
But maybe one last time, this could work
Instead maybe one last cry, to forget you
Bury myself deep within to only find a greater sin
Maybe we were meant to be, but now I can see, that your better off without me
Even as the tears fall down my face, I can feel your arms tighten slightly around my waist
Leaning back, I fall into nothing
For you have long been gone from my eyes, but my subconscious haunts me
I miss the way you made me feel, my eyes are lite up in every picture I have of us
I miss your touch, your feel, your every sigh
Why is it that I can still cry?
Is it because I know I can feel without something, without maybe being by your side
But if I saw you today, what would I do?
If I opened the door to you, would you walk thru it to stand by my side?
Or pass me completely and get right back to your life
Out of all the things I have done, my regrets are not frequent
Stupid choices make their appearances
Yet, there you are, behind my eyes
Why is it that I can't forget you?
Can't find you?
Find me please!
I don't know what else to do, except one last cry to try and forget you