My Secret

I open my mouth and take a bite

My senses reel with savory delight

I open my mouth and eat some more

I tell myself just one more bite and then no more

Minutes later and my stomach is full

Bloated and hurting from so much food

I tell myself that it will fade

Just a few more minutes and it will go away

But the urge is to strong to ignore

In seconds I'm rushing to the bathroom door

Hoping and praying that no one will hear

I lift the lid and cast aside my fears

I contract my throat and push out the bile

A few bites of food down in the water

I tell myself that I won't do it anymore

That it's not making me skinny

That it's harm and not good

I'm ashamed of myself for being this way

My little secret

My source of decay