The Dialouge of Hate we Loved

when grass turned pale through years
I watched the waves as they stroke the rocks
I held a one word monolouge with you
as I tried understanding why you left me

---"why,This time,because my deepest wishes burnt
and what is left,I wish to run from distant stars
For all time,Love was against you child
because I want you not to ever find out."

had I stood up to look out the broken window
as I used to,but something was not the same
the winds bared the ashes across the plains
as a heavy burden,like they were meant to
and the rays of sun enhanced your absance

Now I wonder am I asking what I should
for the reason that I know I have sent you away
I wish I could embrace your talents once again
turn away and ignore to let it do what it wants

---"You know the way,and I can only wait
because the only time when i will go away
is the time when you take me to your grave
but i don't think you will welcome me there"

My only regret is that I made no other way
I shall follow the scent I wish to forget
and rip out the heart I was gifted as you left
to leave it at the entrance I sealed

Where are you my Vergil?