"message to the world"

Will I survive, lying here lying to myself
Be sure to leave my side
Cuz I’m just too sure, you’re not on it anyway
There’s just no way for you to go
So let me tell you, straight up no lies, no lies
I know you’re not coming to my home
To reassure me
Out of all the feelings I’ve had,
You’re the reason why,
It’s worse
I’m ready for the fall, and the person I’ve become,
Has changed again
I just think I’m going into depression again…


Chorus-
Beg for everything I got
Go back home and cry and sob
When I say no to your face
Do you know what I mean cuz
I’ve got a message to the world
So let me tell you softly and slowly



I’ll be fine, I’ve realized that
If I lie here and think of a violent act
I’d do it, and I’d be okay
Pray for a remembrance of me
I’ve got a message to the world
I hope you’re watching me, in pain
I hope you know what I mean
When I say these things again and again
I hope you’re watching me as I leave
A memory is like a knife in me
And I’d hope you know what it’s like