Escape This Life

The tide pulls me out, out and away.

Away from my fragile hold on reality.

Adrift on this see of my eternal misery.

I cry myself to sleep and wait for the morn.

I can't breathe when I think about my past.

Can't sleep when I dream of my future.

Bereft and alone, I was always alone.

Fighting for my life, through this bitter strife.

It's unbecoming of you, to say you love me.

When you know it's not true.

Finger on the trigger, turn these black thoughts to red.

Just a squeeze it'll all be gone.

But I can't let go just yet.

While hope yet glimmers on the horizon.

Taunting me with it's shimmering tendrils.

They reach out to touch me, lift me off my raft.

I scream out to god, he never does answer.

THey carry me away, but I am afraid.

Because hope always drops me, right into the sea.

Of despair, bitter agony, and desperation.

It carries me away and I close up my eyes.

Maybe I'll make it this time, maybe I won't.

Take it a breath at a time, I'll be fine.

I'll never be happy, but I will survive.

I will survive, and maybe escape this life.