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Living A Life, Not Unlike Hell

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Take the knife it'll ease the pain.

Staring down the barrel so dark, so cold.

Wishing for it all to end, I can't take life anymore.

I feel so numb, so empty so cold.

I want to hate you both, but I love you so much.

You were the light in my life.

Something to look forward to, something to love.

I never thought it would be so hard,

I never thought I deserved this.

But I guess I'm a fuck up, worthless.

I've been played before, I've been broken and hurt.

But never before have I hurt like this.

A shadow has settled over my heart, over my soul.

I don't feel happy, or sad, or angry.

I feel different, changed.

I'm not myself anymore, I'm an altered being.

I don't know if I'm capable of love.

What to do when I'm not even capable to hate.

It's eating away at me, this ravenous anguish.

It's killing me again and again.

You said you'd try not to hurt me, you said you loved me.

I said the same thing.

And I meant every word, but now you both have broken my heart.

I think I'm finding my path, into oblivion.

Away from pain, I love you both still in a way.

But I don't know if you'll ever get back my trust.

I'm sorry for my flaws, my quirks, and my oddities.

But their gone now, I'm just a shell.

Living a life, not unlike hell.

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On August 19th 2008 AlBobby Said :
AlBobby deep. reminds me of me.
On August 18th 2008 chickenbroth Said :
chickenbroth Sorry life is sucking. If it makes you feel any better, you can stil write a kick ass poem, even when you feel like shit. (Your a good guy, don't let shit get you down.)
On August 18th 2008 LeahLive Said :
LeahLive Sorry dude. We don't know eachother at all, but if you'd like to talk, I'm here. (Corny, I know)
On August 17th 2008 101091 Said :
101091 I love it. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you're a fuck up or worthless and don't ever let the things they say make you feel that way. You are far more than that. Don't forget it.
On August 17th 2008 CassieZ Said :
CassieZ ***big hug**** remember my shoutout to my family on and testriffic and how I was like- ANDY! lol. you're awesome and DONT let anyone make you feel otherwise.
On August 17th 2008 Calypso32 Said :
Calypso32 Gracious, If I could I'd give ya a hug and say those meaningless phrases like "It'll be ok" but at this time in your pain, those things won't help, only stolid determination to overcome and overpower the shadows. Please, dear heart, be stronger than the pain! If you need to talk, I'm around, (this you should know ;) ) blessings.~L
On August 17th 2008 muse4apoem Said :
muse4apoem Everyone feels like this from time to time. All it takes is healing. You will heal.
On August 17th 2008 bayleebroken Said :
bayleebroken ..im sorry thats amazing and so are you dont forget it