NOT KNOWING HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HIM

I DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU TILL THE DAY YOU LEFT MY LIFE,

I DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH YOU  LOVED ME TILL I OPENED THE LETTER YOU GAVE ME TO READ WHEN YOU LEAVE,

I WANTED SO MUCH TO TELL YOU THAT I FELT THE SAME,

BUT AS YOU LEFT THIS WORLD YOU TOLD ME TO SMILE ON LAST TIME SO YOU CAN REMEMBER ME ALWAYS,

I SAW YOU DRIFT AWAY AS I TRIED NOT TO CRY,

I HELD YOUR HAND AND KISSED YOU ON THE FORHEAD AND TOLD YOU THIS IS NOT GOODBYE,

AS I LEFT THE ROOM MY WORLD FELL APART,

I CRIED TILL NO MORE TEARS WOULD FALL 

THE DAY WE PUT YOU TO REST WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE I WANTED SO BADLY TO JUMP IN THE HOLE AND GO WITH YOU,

MY LIFE FEELS SO EMPTY WITHOUT YOU HERE WITH ME,

MY HEART IS DARK AND FILLED WITH PAIN,

I GAVE YOU THE KEY TO MY HEART AND IT WILL STAY WITH YOU ALWAYS FOR THERE IS NO OTHER I WOULD LOVE AS MUCH AS I LOVED YOU,

I WOUNDER THIS WORLD ALONE WITH NOTHING BUT OLD MEMORIES,

ONE DAY MY LOVE WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN IN HEAVEN WERE WE WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE EACH OTHER FROM WERE WE LEFT OFF,

SO I WILL NOT DWELL ON YOU FOR LONG BECAUSE WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN IT MAY TAKE LONG FOR ME TO COME BUT I WILL BE THERE WITH YOU WHEN I DRIFT AWAY,

IN YOUR LETTER YOU TOLD ME THAT LIFE IS TO SHORT TO TAKE EACH MOMENT AND LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST, YOU TOLD ME TO FORGET ABOUT YOU AND TO FIND SOMEONE THAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY, YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL,YOU TOLD ME NOT TO CRY TO SMILE FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU LOVED  MY SMILE,IN THE END OF THE LETTER YOU TOLD ME TO PROMISE NOT TO CRY AND TO FIND ANOTHER THAT WILL TREAT ME LIKE YOU DID..

I GUESS I COULDN'T ;T KEEP THAT PROMISE BECAUSE I CRIED TILL I HAD NO MORE TEARS ,AND I TOLD MYSELF I WILL NEVER LOVE ANOTHER AGAIN,I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME AND I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME SO PLEASE FORGIVE ME,BECAUSE YOU ARE ALL I WANTED,YOU ARE ALL I NEED,YOU ARE ALL I HAD,AND I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU TILL THE DAY WE MEET IN HEAVEN AGAIN,I LOVE YOU AND I WILL NOT SAY GOODBYE,FOR IT'S HELLO SEE YOU LATER AND SAVE ME A PLACE IN LINE WERE I WILL HOLD YOUR HAND TILL THE END OF TIME.......