Love, Lies, and Forgivness

You were still hanging out with your ex,

Even though I thought I was your next.

You lied a little,

But I lied a lot.

You were sorry and I forgave you,

Now I am sorry...but I don't expect to be forgiven.

I'm sitting here wondering why I lied,

And truely can't think of why.

I want to say I'm sorry,

I want to tell you the truth.

But how can I if you don't read what I write,

I wrote those words for you to read.

I didn't ask you to take me back,

I just asked you to think about those words.

I can't even forgive myself,

So how can I expect you to?

My heart aches,

All emotions coming in at once.

I've never cried a whole lot to I met you,

And it was all because I was the one hurting you.

How can I begin to explain how I feel,

When really all I feel is hate against myself?

I just want to know that your ok,

And if you never want to hear of me again I'll leave and never come back.

I just wanted you to know.

~Ashley O.