The life i need, i want. [ i have]

Hardly see the world as it is. I slightly open my eyes.I don't want to be here right now. I need my life back. So far from where perfect was. I had it perfect. Till then and there. And now, I have nothing. I wanna go back to the way things were. I want to be with my perfect life again. I need to be with my perfect life. I can't stand it. Its a need and want. I want. I can't live off of memories. Memories may last foever, but not for me. They fly away out of your hands, like that, right in front of you. And your life flashes and then again..You have nothing. I have nothiing. I have no one. I have me. Not enough. I want more. I need more. perfect is all I need. Perfect is all I want. So here I am again, just looking up and hopeing. Just wanting and needing. Didn't know it till I opened my eyes. This is now my world as i know it. This is my life. Taking it as it comes. In control of what I do. Making the best of it as it comes. I dont have nothing no more. I have everything. This is my new perfect. Still wanting my old pefect. But to find a new one is as good as old. Is as good as new. It's all just perfect now. now that I see.