Always smilling

Life is not great without friends, and i learned that with my best friend.I would cut, i would try to kill myself, tried hanging and tried jumping.Then u where there n made that pain almost wash away.You taght me how to smile like u do, everyday like you where related to the sun.But who new what happined behind close doors.I would wak u home, to the door, give u a hug,and then walk away.I never new that when u walked in that door, u walked to hell.Mommy would beat u,Daddy would rape u.No one would ever feed you.And all this time u smile, like nothing was wrong,like the world was really perfect.And while i would sleep in bed, you would climb out the window to find any type of food.But yet i was the one who cried, who cut, you tried commitimg suacide.Jumping, hanging.And then there was that fateful day,where i could not walk with you,i could not see u smile.For u where killed on the day of ur birthday,for begging for more food.So now i walk to ur grave,always smilling, because thats what u taut me...