Dear mommy

Dear mommy,

in this world that has no end to pain n suffering?

Do u think i cry for plessure, for you 2 lash me more and more with your strength of a hungry lion, consuming me whole, piece by piece?

why would i enjoy watching your pain if i no that it will be my own?

Why can i not wait to see you cry at night begging the powers of this world to take u?

What will i gain?

I watch u leave again n agiain.

I listen to your lies of love n happyness?

I see you play the world as if it was a game in ur complete reaching.

I am no longer human.

U have raised a child that did not wish to be born, did not wish to live but to die, n did not wish to be a part of u.

No food in the fridge, n u ask me why.

Not anofe money to satisfy ur hunger of abuse, n u aske me why.

But what of my hunger, n my little sister, who has woken up constless times in the middle of the night, to wake me n say "when will mommy come home tonight".

What do i say to a child of this age, who has nothing but love in her heart, that will soon turn to hate.

So mommy i ask u, to die n leave this world very soon.

Leave us n fly far away, so ur hate n pain can not reach her, my little inasent sister who would be so much better without u. 

Leave, so she may not become the immage of you, but better off me, no, herself.

I did not ask to be born, but now i am happy i was, because tonight mommy, i hold ur world in the palm of my hands....so little sister n me can be free....