That Perfect Boy

I sit reading the things he wrote,

And I wonder how I didn’t see the pain in his notes.

He was there everyday for me and still is,

The weeks he needed me I mistook it and dropped him like he was worthless.

Even though people said I was in the right,

I can’t stop feeling bad even with all my might.

I let him down, I became like all his family and friends,

I proved he was right, that no one would help his heart mend.

After all he’s been through I ignored the hurt,

All he wanted was someone to make it work.

He’s terrified of hurting you and me,

Just for once I want to set him free.

He calmed me when I was scared,

He was the angel in my nightmare.

I was scared of getting hurt, and letting it all show,

I can’t believe what I did, I fell in love but let it go.

Now I realize I made a huge mistake,

I never should have fallen, I never should have let go, but it’s all to late.